of mirrors,chocolates & blankets (Part 2)......

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sometimes when u look ard...there are so many pple who lead such pitiful lives tat it hurts when u juz look at it...i cn't possibly imagine how much pain it takes for them to go through it...(so quit looking and wallow in ur miserable lives u thought was miserable..cos if u were given the chance to pick whose or wat kind of live u wanna lead..trust me...u'll still pick ur own)...a typical example tat i'll use is frm a drama character and her brilliant dialogues....this mother who spent 16 yrs living with an unworthy man and has 2 kids & is nw on the verge of divorce...a very typical problem ain't it...bt cn u see the blood, sweat & tears behind it all tat i tink cn fill a river...she works with all her energy for the man,e house, e kids and wat r e results? man gets e house,e divorce & kids dn't understand,dislike their mother being naggy,deciding her way,etc (kids,sometimes we ought to spare a thought too)...so much injustice she wld've felt...wat was all the work she has done for?..striving so hard for life,but who understands? she says when pple r in love,they cn give so many empty promises so easily, like "i'll love u only" "i'll love u forever"...if u argue at least at tat moment it's the truth...shld't we say it like"..i'll love u only during this moment..." "during this moment,we have to love crazily"..then y must we hang the word 'forever' by our mouths?...i laughed at this...nt cos it's funny,but how true it is...love is nt fake...it's the person's heart tat is fake,although pple will nt change...pple's hearts will change..& tat woman's divorce ended with e couple walking opposite ways in front of e court room...e man juz walks away like tat...seems like stealing half her entire life away...i also feel for her injustice...he juz walks away...not even words like "I'm sorry.Pls live well"...nt even such words to give her after having lived together for so long...which brings me to talk abt marriage &all the views tat have been changed...do one have to depend on the fact tat they are married, to depend on the promise swearing in front of others to connect to each other...makes u wonder...and since we r on the topic of love...
heard this tat was rather funny abt whether u cn actually forget abt someone u loved..."if u forget...dn't u go like "oh my,who is this?" when u meet tat person again...so how cn u forget?...so u cn abandon a person u love bt cnnt forget"...i thought how very true it is...and it is evident even in mother-child relationships...and humans are by nature...very selfish creatures...eg. juz so u cnnt love someone tat u want to love,does tat mean u cnnt love anyone or give love to anyone else?...everyone craves to be loved...whether it's e child frm the mother or the mother frm e child or between e missus and her man...
we all have reasons tat we make mistakes or lie sometimes...and so often we get misjudged...and y do pple only blame or make judgements frm only wat they see and never bother to even ask "why?"...i always believed there were reasons in everything whether it cn be explained or not...and nt everytime tat it's neccessary e person's fault either because they didn't chose it for things to turn out the way it did either...so y cn't we give a little more love & understanding...& i dn't mean tat we push all the blames & juz complain and whine ever so frequently god knows over wat that we typical being loves to do which really get on my nerves...and wanting understanding frm everyone is something very selfish...if there's even 1-2 pple tat understands,it's smthing to be grateful abt...we dn't realise hw selfish it is of us to really expect and want understanding frm everyone....tat's smthing we've to learn...
& have u wondered y we seek or yearn to hear words like "thank you" ..."i love you" etc...?issit to replace words like " I'm sorry"...or longing to hear these precious words frm someone who for once will see u in their eyes or feel u in their hearts?...it's heart aching to tink abt this...will end here nw...and bless u & hopefully u r someone blessed with lots of 'love' & 'thank you's...but dn't forget to give as u receive....

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of mirrors,chocolates & blankets (Part 1)......

U must be wondering y e wierd title...u'll soon find out....lots of thoughts have been in my mind...once in a while when u have a break...or just moments of absolute peace,solitude and time...u'll start to realise,notice & think of some stuffs...cos i've so much in my head...i hope writing them in words will bring them out logically and lay them clear for myself to see...so pardon me for it'll be very long ramblings(& may nt even have a smooth flow..cos it's all jumbled in my head)....
mirrors shows our own reflections...it throws back e image of urself for u to take a gd look...bt nt everyone has the courage to face themselves in the mirrors everyday...chocolates comes in different layers and different mildness or taste of sweetness or bitterness...perfect description for humans and their complexity...and lastly blankets...u realise the warmth they provide when u r cold, perfect to hide the sadness,frm protection of fear...in the wee hrs...while u sleep...wat i'll be posting in this series...are just some reflections,thoughts,the bitterness or sweetness,the things we never realise or ignore while growing and living our lives....
Nt everybody lead interesting lives...and i always thought y pple living 'cardboard' lives have to be deemed inferior...i find so much charms in the simple lives many of us lead...these little little things tat we usually overlook...and human relationships are so complex...there's no way u cn explain or define them...tat's y humans and living are of such interests to me cos u cn nvr figure it out...(maybe i shld juz study philosophy,psychology &stuffs like that)...
I've learnt that reality is unrealistic...& really sometimes it even feels like fantasy...contradicting? life is meant to be tat way...i always thought how pple cont'd to live, is juz the continuous search for tat something tat makes life worth living...triumph?...confidence?...love?...i don't know...
it was partly a couple of dramas and drama writer-noh hee kyung's words that got me thinking....she mentioned in an interview tat "....the thought that there's nothing more pressing in today's society than trying to live a respectable life keeps haunting me...."....and these words keep coming back to me...so much truth in these words....many pple try so hard to lead a respectable live...and it's not like u cn measure like u measure rain with a rain gauge &then predict e weather..wat quantity...wat defines....how and wat makes u earn one...i cnnt explain or really know either...
If u dn't realise... how all of us actually make judgements according to our own standards...and somehow we'll expect others to live by our standards as well...which trully isn't fair...cos i believe each of us have the right to choose and dictate the means and ways with which we lead our own lives...we shld learn to give tat understanding tat each individuals deserve...words are easy to say but nt easy to keep or practice....words like respect, understanding, love are by no means easy to achieve...as i type i realise i'm guilty of many things and i hope i won't expose all my flaws haha....
am i setting u thinking?....btw if u have some answers or views...i'll be happy to know...it's frustrating sometimes to fight with one's thoughts or there's no answers...
till next time....nitez!

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